I’m just going to get right into it. I weighed myself this morning and I was shocked.
Weigh in #4 = 162
Then I left for my solo turkey trot. I ran 10 miles at the reservoir this morning. I did the same thing last year and I’ve decided to make it a tradition. I did a lot of thinking on that run. At first I was angry, angry at the scale, at myself, at my body. Then the anger turned into a string of justifications. I’m PMSing. I’m running more. I ate more than a few of the treats I baked last night for Thanksgiving including Mama Pea’s Peanut Butter Cookie Dough Balls and Chocolate Chip Cookies with Sea Salt. Vegan does not equal fat free, but it does equal delicious. Try them you won’t be sorry, but only try one or two then give them all away.
After being angry and blaming the weight gain on random things I started to calm down. In my comment on Biz’s Holiday Challenge update this week I wrote:
“OK so as far as the challenge goes, I’m feeling so unaccomplished. I weigh in again on Thursday, but honestly I don’t feel much different. My goal was to lose 10 pounds by the end of the year and I’ve done nothing but stay the same. I was thinking about my goal today. Was it realistic given that I’m training for a marathon? I do not use running as an allowance to eat whatever I want. However, I do realize that I need to nourish my body after it has run 10, 15, 20 miles. I try to be sensible about replenishing calories. I have maintained my weight throughout training and actually have lost 2 pounds since the actual beginning of marathon training.”
I probably won’t lose 10 pounds by the end of the year. That’s ok. I will lose it after the marathon. The scale is not going away yet because this is a challenging time of year. Food is everywhere and not necessarily healthy food. There is a party every week it seems between now and Christmas. I no longer see the holidays as a time to indulge and lose sight of healthy behaviors. I have worked very hard to maintain this weight that I am at for over a year and I intend on staying here until the marathon is over. If I end up losing a pound or two great. I suspect that the 162 is largely due to a bit of water retention and if I’m correct then the scale will return to the 160 it seems so comfortable.
I may not meet my Holiday Challenge goal, but the challenge has helped me to meet other bloggers, stay focused on portion sizes, and be cognizant of what I’m eating despite all the miles I’m running. My weight loss journey is far from over, but at least I’m no longer waiting for it to end. I’m out there running and strength training, playing outside with my son, baking and cooking more and more healthy recipes that are whole food and plant based, eating a rainbow of colors and enjoying it. I’m happy, healthy and I have more energy than I have ever had before.
I am thankful for so many things in my life on this Thanksgiving Day. Here are my top 5:
- My beautiful son Carlos tops my list. He makes me smile and truly makes me want to be a better person. When I run I do it for both of us. I want him to grow up with a healthy, happy Mom and I want him to know he can do anything he sets his mind to.
- My handsome husband Orlando is next on my list. We celebrated 10 years of marriage in September and it has been wonderful. I love him very much.
- Breaking my rib in September…weird right?! I know it sounds crazy, but in a strange way I’m grateful for the experience. It reminded me of how I take my good health for granted sometimes. It taught me to listen to my body and treat it with care. It also proved to me how incredible the body really is and how deserving it is of excellent nutrition and fitness.
- My job. I’m lucky to have a job and even luckier to have a job that I really like. I have to work tonight and I don’t even mind. I’m looking forward to seeing the girls I work with. We generally have an enjoyable time no matter what.
- Running. I promise to not get all sappy about how running has changed my life so I’ll just leave it at that!
I am also very thankful for those of you who have been visiting my blog and leaving kind, encouraging comments. Thank you so much. I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving.
Seems you have lots to be thankful for 🙂 I hate the scale sometimes too, I try not to let it be my over measure of success though, there are many other ways to know you are moving in the right direction. Happy Turkey Day 🙂
You’re so right Tia. The day before I wrote the post I was at the gym doing some strength training in front of a mirror. I actually marveled at how small my waist has become yet the very next day I was ready to berate myself over a number on the scale. This is an important reminder. Thank you.
Hope you had a great Thanksgiving. Lots to be thankful for, even that pesky scale. Have a great week!
Thanks Jacky. Darn scale, funny how grateful I am towards it when it shows me a loss!! You too have a great week.
I’ve felt the same way before Aimee. But you aren’t giving up and that’s what matters! I’m glad you had a great Thanksgiving with lots to be thankful for!
Thanks Kaye. I’m definitely not giving up.
I love that you let the anger go during your run. Yep, you have to eat more when you run more, and I realize there are going to be temptations galore over the next few weeks.
I too thought “10 pounds is so doable!” Now I think I may resolve the fact that I maintain during this holiday season – sometimes that’s a victory in and of itself.
Sometimes I feel like I’ve come so far emotionally then I’m beat back by the weigh in. I know it’s wrong to feel that way and I most certainly let it go a lot easier now. In the past a bad weigh in would be an excuse to keep being “bad” so to speak. Those days are gone. You and I are both working out so much and we should be proud of ourselves! Maintaining is not giving up.
Love your Thankful Things!
Hi Aimee! I think that staying the same weight at this time of year is a small kind of miracle.
I actually get all raring to go about weight…and then get promptly burnt out from the whole ordeal. I’ve got to find a *medium* level for that.
I also enjoyed the people/things you are thankful about.
BTW, I really enjoy you. All of the nice things you said to me on comments–right back at you. You are a crazy fun sweet blessing in my life.
Thanks so much Marion. I have found so much inspiration in your blog. You hit the nail on the head about weight loss. I am the same way, all business and then I fizzle out. I too need to find a happy medium where I am able to accomodate my fitness goals along with my weight loss goals. For now if I maintain throughout the holidays I will consider that a success.