I’ve been a real bummer lately both here on the blog and in life in general. Thanks for bearing with me. Well I’m done feeling sorry for myself. I said what I had to say, and it was like a weight lifted off my shoulders. I not only released my thoughts here, but to my husband as well. I stewed about things for a few days, but then the cloud lifted and there was only one way to go. I quickly jumped into forward motion. I broke out the juicer and made a nice refreshing green juice. I got my Vitamix all in a tizzy making my green smoothies. I chopped up all the veggies I could find, threw them in a pot and made a hearty vegetable soup for the week. I also washed and tore up a few heads of kale for easy salads. I sliced up a pineapple and made a pot of brown rice. During a lull last night at work I put a tentative workout plan on the calendar. Sure I’ve got some issues with food. They have been with me for a very long time. However, I am actively working on them. I refuse to undo all of the progress I have made over the last few years. I’m determined to overcome this.
To push even further past the depressing tone of my blog I thought I might throw in a little random Q&A. I saw this on Carina’s blog today from Kenlie’s Friend Makin’ Monday series.
Quick and Easy Questions
1. What time did you go to bed last night? I went to bed around 8pm and got up at 10pm for work. Last night was my first night back to work after an uneventful yet unplanned four nights off. Somehow I managed to get my co-worker to switch a night with me last week so that I could finagle the four nights off. It was a welcome treat for myself and my family.
2. What is the last thing that made you smile? Last night before work I went in to kiss Carlos goodbye and his face was turned toward the doorway so I could see it in the dim light that streamed through. He looked so peaceful and content, and it made me smile. I just stood there for a few minutes watching him sleep, so precious! These moments are fleeting and I know they must be savored. Oh crap now I’m starting to tear up. Next…
3. What is the last movie you watched? The last movie I saw in the theater was Catching Fire from the Hunger Games series. As I was proofreading this post I realized that my answer should really be Disney’s Frozen which recently won a Golden Globe for best animated feature film. I saw it with Carlos and a group of friends. I can’t lie, I’m not a big fan of animation. However, this was very entertaining.
4. What did you have for breakfast today? I had a smoothie with frozen wild blueberries, a few pieces of banana, almond milk, Vega Vanilla Chai, cinnamon and at the last minute I threw in a teaspoon of spirulina. Good lord why do I torture myself with that pungent algae powder? I tell myself if I can just manage to get it in the smoothie without smelling it I won’t even notice it. Lies, it’s all lies. I smell it every time and it kind of (but not entirely) ruins the deliciousness of my smoothie.
5. Would you rather mop all of your floors or do laundry? Laundry, hands down. I hate mopping the floor.
6. Do you drink coffee? Yes, I do drink coffee at work usually. I go through phases when I drink more than one cup a night and then sometimes I don’t drink any for a few nights.
7. Will you watch the Superbowl? Like salt on a wound people! The sores have yet to heal and you’re already talking Superbowl?! I’m a New England girl! Just kidding. I actually didn’t even watch last night’s sorry excuse of a game. Though I’m sure I will watch the Superbowl.
8. How often do you shop for groceries? I am fairly certain that I actually work part time at Stop & Shop only I never get a pay check. Seriously, it’s kind of embarrassing how often I’m at the grocery store. There’s just always something that I’ve forgotten for home or school or Orlando has eat all the bananas again or Carlos has a play date and I have no “normal” snacks.
9. What kind of workout will you do today? Carlos and I are going to run a mile shortly and I might throw in some foam rolling and a few yoga stretches. Since Carlos is home from school because of Martin Luther King Day it is essentially a rest day.
10. Do you use a fitness tracker? I don’t have anything that constantly tracks like a FitBit. I use MapMyRun to track my runs. I have a bulky Garmin Forerunner, but since I always run with my iPhone the MapMyRun app is easier for me to use. I also track on occasion at My Fitness Pal, my user name is mozaim if you want to find me. If you do follow me on MFP please know that I am very inconsistent. I track my food mostly on paper unless I’m really trying to get a handle on calories. Sometimes I jump back and forth between the two depending on what is more readily accessible.
Have a wonderful Monday!
Aim 
I’m so sorry to hear that things were bad for a while there, and sorrier still that I’ve been such a bad blogging buddy that I didn’t even realize it. 😦 It sounds like you had an incredibly productive day yesterday, though. I know taking action and getting things done always puts me in a good mood, and it seems like your spirits are lifted too. Yay!!
Our answers are so similar to a few of these FMM questions. I’m with you on the salty wound of the Superbowl and laundry over floors.
Thank you for your support Bella. I’ve been working really hard this week to get organized. I’m feeling better and better as the days go by. I just want you to know that your blog makes me smile. I’m so darn proud of all your success!
Hi Aimee, Skip the smelly stuff! You’re right about this. Whatever’s in it, well, I’m not eating it either, and I’m still alive.
Yes, the only way to get out of the eating funk is to do what you did–full force in the opposite direction. (This is precisely why intuitive eating will never work for me–when I’m feeling sorry for myself, I’d like to lay in bed with an entire pack of donuts. Wow, the scariness of that thought gets me to do what I need to do!) Email me, if you have time. ❤
I’m full steam ahead Marion. I found this cute notebook the other day with a phrase I’ve been running through my head since the New Year, “Be the Change You Want to See in the World.” I knew immediately that it was meant to be my new food journal. I’ve been journaling a la Marion, just jot it down and don’t worry about calories, weights, etc. Funny thing I’m less than a week into it and already I’m feeling better about my eating, managing cravings with a little more ease and avoiding major binging situations. I’ve been all over the place with journaling – online, on paper, back and forth, but I think this is the right direction for me right now. I will shoot you an email this weekend since I have some time off. Oh and I’m so done with spirulina smoothies! Life is just too short.
Glad you joined in FMM this week, and thanks for your heartfelt comments to me. I’m sorry I laughed when I read no. 7. I’m not a football person, but I can imagine… I also liked your answer to no. 8 a lot.
I actually get a little annoyed that the cashiers don’t “know” me at Stop & Shop. I miss these FMM’s.
Hi Aimee…
Well, I don’t think you’ve been a bummer in real life or on the blog…but then again, isn’t it always easier to act happier when you are around other people. I know that I’ve been feeling a bit blah this January as well and I just can’t seem to snap out of it. But reading your post made me realize, really it’s just all about keeping on. It’s so easy to just stop and do nothing when we feel our worst, but feeling better will only come when we start to do something that will make a change, no matter how small.
I haven’t blogged this month yet! My mom is going through withdrawal and I’m trying to figure out what my plan is.
Glad you had FOUR days off…must have felt nice!
See you at work soon!
Kaye
Thank you for saying so Kaye. I never bring this stuff into work. The patients certainly don’t need to be exposed to my issues and frankly I work with enough crabby people I pride myself on coming to work in a cheerful mood. Truthfully work is one place where I am kind of OK with myself. You couldn’t have described how I have been feeling any better with that one word, BLAH! That’s it!! I just saw a pic on FB about how December is all bright and cheery with the Christmas lights, music, etc. and then we hit the doldrums of January like a slap in the face.
I’m with your Mom. I need some Friday Favorites Kaye!!
I think all these comments hit the nail right on the head. The only way we can change anything is by MAKING the change, not waiting for the change to happen. It’s so weird how my old habits are all too willing to wait in the wings to be center stage! HUGS!!
I think the mistake I made in the past was to allow the old habits to stay front and center. I would back down and let them take over. I would not publicly acknowledge it, but I know my family took note and noticed the negative changes in me like the weight gain and moodiness that would inevitably occur. I’m fighting the bad habits tooth and nail this time. I will not let them take over. They might creep in a little bit here and there, but that is as far as it goes! Thanks Biz!!