I ran the Hot Chocolate 5K yesterday. I PRd with a time of 28:53. This is great for me. Fantastic really! Yet I feel strangely let down. I don’t know how to make sense of my feelings. As I mentioned in a previous post I also pulled on a pair of size 10 pants this weekend for the first time in years. Why does this all not make me beam from ear to ear?
At the starting line I seeded myself with the 10:30 racers even though should have at least stood with the 10 minute milers. There I go again grossly underestimating my abilities.
My first instinct when I saw my official race time was that my tag was defective? Not, “wow your hard work has paid off.”
For the first time before any race I had some tummy issues and had to endure the port-a-potty. Needless to say my issues did not entirely resolve. So I ran with tummy issues and a still unresolved minor cold and cough. Do you believe that for a minute the thought crossed my mind that I didn’t deserve to PR this race because I wasn’t feeling great? What is wrong with me?
I’ve got a little soul searching to do. Hopefully I can shake this funk and get on with things.