I ran the Hot Chocolate 5K yesterday.  I PRd with a time of 28:53.  This is great for me.  Fantastic really!  Yet I feel strangely let down.  I don’t know how to make sense of my feelings.  As I mentioned in a previous post I also pulled on a pair of size 10 pants this weekend for the first time in years.  Why does this all not make me beam from ear to ear?

At the starting line I seeded myself with the 10:30 racers even though should have at least stood with the 10 minute milers.  There I go again grossly underestimating my abilities.

My first instinct when I saw my official race time was that my tag was defective?  Not, “wow your hard work has paid off.”

For the first time before any race I had some tummy issues and had to endure the port-a-potty.  Needless to say my issues did not entirely resolve.  So I ran with tummy issues and a still unresolved minor cold and cough.  Do you believe that for a minute the thought crossed my mind that I didn’t deserve to PR this race because I wasn’t feeling great?  What is wrong with me?

I’ve got a little soul searching to do.  Hopefully I can shake this funk and get on with things.